New Grandma !

As from the eyes of a new mum                    

In honour of Elliana Rose, from her grandma, Elspeth Jackman

Seven days old.

You are so tiny, so fragile, so vulnerable,

But your little body pulsates with life.

I just want to spend time looking at you.

Seven days old.

You with the long expressive fingers of a violinist,

And eyes, revealed through the slits like large blue marbles

I am absorbed in baby-gazing.

Seven days old.

Do I dare to leave you alone and make a cup of tea?

Do I dare to join you and go to sleep?

I must trust.  It’s not just my admiration that keeps you alive.

Seven days old.

I will trust.

You are entrusted to me.

And I will trust God

As I too am a child, a child of my Father in heaven,

And He looks after me.